Confessions

Oh you love a good confession, don't you? I see you leaning forward closer to your computer so you can make sure you catch every word.

Well, it's really nothing that fantastic. But it's fantastic enough that I thought I'd share....

I work nights. As in overnight shift. As in graveyard shift. As in when you're getting up to go to your job, I'm leaving my work to go home and go to bed. Your lunch hour is my REM sleep. So that means my eating schedule, sleeping schedule, family schedule, normal life schedule is all messed up. I've been working nights for many years now so it's really become my normal but what never seems to adjust to normal is by body. I eat dinner at 10 at night. Most nights when I am off work, I try to eat later than everyone else. Trying to maintain an overnight shift life on your days off is hard but I have tried to adapt. However, before I started changing my eating habits I used to frequent late night drive-thru's on my break which is a 45 minute break I take at 2:30 in the morning. You'd be surprised how late different restaurants stay open. Taco Bell, McDonalds, Wendy's...all OPEN LATE.

I had a thought today as I left work on my break that I have since broken the habit of driving to one of these places to satisfying a carb craving in the wee hours of the morning. But, I also miss the taste. I miss Diet Coke. I can't tell you how bad I miss Diet Coke. But, I haven't had one since March 16th, 2011. I really miss Diet Coke from McDonalds. And I miss french fries. And my confession is that every night I worked, I'd eat fries and drink Diet Coke alone in my car and I feel a tremendous amount of guilt after it. Like the type of guilt you might feel leaving your child at daycare, I felt about eating shitty food late at night.

Since having changed that about my break and modifying other things in my diet, I have found that I am getting results. The Cheat Day is my salvation. I probably wouldn't have managed this long without allowing myself the one day a week that I do.

So there it is. I have confessed to being a fast food junkie ......